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thrift rockWhen I made my journey on foot in 2013, I was astounded, though not surprised, by the number of connections there were on my journey – people whose names came up again and again, chance encounters with people I had known and never met, serendipitous events helping me on my way. At walking pace, the whole of you can inhabit a patch as you travel through it: your stories, your intent. You leave threads of both clinging to the places you pass, like fibres of a sheep’s fleece as it brushes past the heather. Down the road as you walk into your intentions, another passer by, it seems, has gathered those threads, and woven them into a new story even better than you could have dreamed, cloaking you in all its pattern and colour.

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I expected this journey to be a more isolated one, with less time for such weaving to occur, as much of my time is being spent moving at speed in a metal box called a car. But it is not to be.

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On my first morning, waking up at Glencoe Youth Hostel, I waited for the ‘Munroe baggers’ to leave before going to the kitchen (I tire quickly of their competitive chatter). There, sat quietly and alone was a man who was intriguing and somehow familiar. I could not figure out why he was familiar without staring at him more often than was acceptable so I gave up. When his height was next to me at the hob I looked across and suddenly out of my mouth fell the words, “Are you Tall Andy?”. And he was. We were at university together twelve years ago and have not crossed paths since. A five minute summary of the intervening years did not seem enough so I joined him and his friend on the first part of their hike. A gift of a first morning.

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Now, at the end of what felt to me like an epic few days of driving (though some would do the distance in a day), I have arrived in the Assynt, in the county of Sutherland – the Vikings’ ‘Suðurland’ (‘South Country’). I am in a tiny crofters’ village on the coast. There is a white sand beach and turquoise water when the sun is shining. The landscape is both wild and intimate, and deer and seals have become commonplace. I was told about this place by some Basque exchange students at the University of Edinburgh, while travelling in Morocco last Christmas. In the irrational way that I choose my destinations, this village became a kind of ‘Shangri-La': A place where I could spend a while, walking and writing, and letting the threads of my intent to reach the Faroes, then Iceland, catch on the heather.

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Separately, my housemates from Cumbria have recently completed a cycling trip through Scotland. One of their final destinations was to volunteer on a croft, in the same region as my intended ‘destination’. That much we all knew. Yesterday I found out that that croft is the neighbouring one to where I am. Three people from the same household, three weeks apart, end up within metres of each other with completely different inspirations and intent. Their story threads are still on the heather: I met someone yesterday who had spoken with them regularly and knew where they had gone next. There is no internet here, but word of mouth is loud and clear. Yesterday I walked past the croft where they had been without realising it, and was impressed by the strength and beauty of the horses I saw grazing. I have learned since that they are Icelandic, and that in this village the crofters own a mixture of Icelandic horses and Fell ponies (from Cumbria).

lichen threadsI have been walking not high or far, but exploring the Close-to-Here while the weather is changeable. It seems right to get to know your neighbours first – people, plants, creatures. The perfume of birch is in the air, and here crowberry ling has crept into the carpet, two of my Icelandic familiars. In the shelter of the forest there is the delicateness of primroses and bluebells aplenty, and out in the open the heather stems glisten a translucent red in the wet, the colour of straw dipped in drying blood. They do not live across the sea.

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And so it is that that the two places, the two parts of me I which to join up, are pooling into one another like the salty sea into the nearby loch, creating a mix of different strengths around wherever I place my feet.

Summer is around the corner. I can smell it and my feet long for horizons.

Some years ago, travelling in Zanzibar with my Icelandic then partner Orri, we were attempting to describe where Iceland was to a bemused Zanzibari. It seemed that London was at the furthest reaches of his mental geography. “North a bit. You know Scotland?” When prompted, he conceded he had heard of Scotland. “And more north,” we said. “More north?! So…north of the world?” ‘North of the World’ seemed like the most fitting term for Iceland I had ever heard. I congratulated him for nailing it.

Almost two weeks ago, leaving in my car from Cumbria England, I drove past a great number of motorway signs that had a diverse array of branches off to Elsewhere, but their main thrust was The North.

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En route to Glencoe

That is where I am heading – The North, then north some more – in an attempt to reach Iceland by land and sea. My wayfaring self would normally find these branches hard to ignore, but in a car they are soon gone – not an option to ponder. And besides, the pull towards an Arctic summer is as tangible for me as for the pink footed goose.

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Chasing the glacier’s tail – nearly Glencoe

Since 2008 I have been in Iceland every summer except one. That moment when the warmth comes to the air – you can smell it. The green pushing up through the dead and the dandelions nodding their heads to the hum of eiders and the screeches of Arctic Terns is utterly beguiling. Everything other than what you are looking at seems not to exist.

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Ardnamurchan Peninsula

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For me this journey is a kind of pilgrimage on two levels. One is to return slowly and as the Norse settlers would have done to a land which used to be my home, to spend un-pressured time with a man who I used to share my life with and move our story forwards, to inhabit a cottage where my soul still lives and which needs some renovation. I have always wanted to arrive by sea, as it seems to me the only way the whole of you can arrive. Sadly the closure of the ferry line between Shetland and Iceland coincided with the year of my first visit. Since then, the route from Norway has also closed, leaving only a very convoluted route down to Harwich, across to Esbjerg in Denmark, then to Iceland via the Faroes.

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The magical moment where Wester Ross begins

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Looking back on Wester Ross

With Cumbria as my starting point, it seems absurd (and expensive) to go this way, so the second level of this pilgrimage is a continuation of my Wayfaring in summer 2013: a journey of openness and trust. I had wanted to explore Scotland then, but between the midges and the weather it was too late in summer for it to be enjoyable. Now I can come to know a little these patches of land and sea between where I live now and and where I lived before – to fill in the gaps in my internal landscape. Being on wheels this time, it is a very different sort of journey, but similar in its ethos. I am simply heading north, and seeing who I meet along the way who may get me to the Faroes, from where I can get a ferry to Iceland. As with everything in life, all one can do is try it and enjoy doing so. At the very least one meets some wonderful people in the asking.

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Applecross

Torridon to end

Torridon to Diabaig

For me, the journey north also feels like a journey back in time: I am heading towards the end of the last ice age. The smoothened hills of Cumbria gave way to the steep and jagged peaks of the highlands, some still with snow on top. And I know well the shape of the mountains and glaciers that await me in Iceland. Plant succession had transitioned from what I am familiar with in Cumbria, to include some flowers I am familiar with from Iceland. I spied Cuckoo Flower lining the road from Loch Lomond onwards, which is a wildflower I became familiar with in Iceland – there it is called Hrafnaklukka (‘The Raven’s Clock’). As I head further north I’m sure I will start seeing ever more of my northern familiars, and fall in love with them again and again.

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Loch Assynt

Since I left Iceland for England more than two tears ago, it has certainly not left me. I feel as if I have a foot in each land, and this journey is bringing them together.

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To Suilven, Assynt

What is home? What is belonging? These are some of the questions I’ll be asking myself as I head into the lengthening evenings, at a pace at which my soul can hopefully keep up with my body – or at least no too far behind. This is a journey, as ever, in between. And in the in between of things the veil is always thin, the character is strong and for now the sun is shining.

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today's inspiration

These past months I have steered my course guided by belief in what I know I must do. I must write. I have written. Some days I write much, others none – for a long time. But all in all this is what I have been doing. This has been the purpose of my being. And when I am walking, or engaged in some other task that is not sitting at my computer, I remind myself that this is still writing.

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It has paid off. I have been published for the second time in the wondrous Earthlines magazine, this time an excerpt from my book, a piece called Mataræði which is the Icelandic for ´Diet´and literally means ´Food Craziness´.

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And Breaking Up, a piece that came out whole upon return from a literally earth shattering trip to Iceland last summer, is soon going to appear in the Dark Mountain Journal Issue 7.

But most rewarding of all, is the recent news that I shall be able to dedicate myself to this task for three whole years. I have been awarded a PhD scholarship in Creative Writing at the University of Glasgow, where I shall work on this memoir as my thesis. I am beyond delighted, and in a strange way I knew it would come to this.

Last summer, I had been considering how I could dedicate myself to a message I had heard loud and true – that I must write about Iceland – and still sustain myself. I had always thought I would only ever do a PhD if it served a very specific aim that married my interests and allowed a progression in my career and personal life. En route to catch my flight to that fractious time in Iceland, I stopped over at a friend’s house. In my bag was a ‘to do’ list of the cluttered kind one makes before leaving on a journey. I was proud that I had managed to cross everything out. Except one thing: ‘Email Dave Borthwick’ it said. Dave was one of the academics I had identified online as being a suitable potential supervisor.  My friend collected me from the station. “Have I ever told you about my friend Dave Borthwick?,” she said. “He’s coming for tea.” The rest, as they say, is history.

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It is a tricky path to tread, writing about a challenging time in one’s life whilst trying to move on from it. Being faithful to what happened while thinking about an audience. So far I have not been thinking much about an audience, but I know when a good piece comes out, and I know an audience would be enchanted, as I am. Those pieces come through me rather than from me, and can be prompted by holding a quartz crystal from a beach in Iceland once sent to me, or having a thought drop heavily and surely into my mind while cooking dinner.

For now, between the Cumbrian rainbows and horizontal hail, I am enjoying the prospect of an imminent summer of journeying north. I shall be making my way slowly to Iceland by land, (possibly air), and sea via the Faroes to my little house on the edge of everything – a fitting pilgrimage towards a new chapter, before my PhD starts in the autumn. If anyone knows anyone who might be sailing from Scotland to the Faroes, or Scotland to Iceland in late May who might like a writer on board, please do get in touch!

I leave you here with a beautiful Icelandic rímur: þegar vetrar þokan grá by Þorsteinn Erlingsson (1858-1914), sung by Steindór Andersen, who was the Westfjords Goði of the Ásatrúafélagið when I lived there (a post about that here), though he lived elsewhere. It tells of the longing for summer from the winter fog, choosing to sit in the light if that is what you love, but remembering the darkness and its place.

Þegar vetrar þokan grá
þig vill fjötra inni:
svífðu burt og sestu hjá
sumargleði þinni.

Þar var löngum lokið skjótt
lífsins öllum mæðum.
Manstu, hvað þær flýðu fljótt
fyrir hennar kvæðum?

Taktu öruggt hennar hönd,
hún mun aftur finna
þau hin sælu sólskinslönd
sumardrauma þinna.

Þar sem loftsins létti son
leið með skærum hljómi,
þar sem yndi, vor og von
vögguðu hverju blómi.

Fljúgðu helst á hennar fund,
hvenær sem þú getur,
við það munu stund og stund
styttast nótt og vetur.

En ef létt er lundin þín,
loftið bjart og næði:
sestu þar sem sólin skín,
syngdu lítið kvæði.

Það er líkt og ylur í
ómi sumra braga;
mér hefur hlýnað mest á því
marga kalda daga.

May your Springtime be an unbridled sprouting of winter’s stored inspirations, rising towards the sun. Happy Easter all.

Mulling and Clearing

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It is true that this blog is not a place I have chosen to inhabit for a long while. It is a place for my more spontaneous responses to the world around me, to events, people, ideas, activities. This past six months feel as though they have had a rhythm of their own – a slow throbbing which had to be. A lull in my normal energy as my cells reconfigured themselves, suspended in grief. A trip to Iceland at the end of summer was a cleansing flush – a wave of motion, newness, and knowing what is not, even if I do not yet know what is.

I have been writing. And I have been creating a dedicated space within which that writing can happen. I have known for a long time that I need to write a book about my experience in Iceland, but when that experience did not turn out as I had dreamed, it was too overwhelming a task to consider. Now, thanks to time, good friends and new perspectives I am beginning to pick out the gold dust in the darkness, and fan old embers which have waited so long to crackle again. In between the chapters of draft, I try to create shorter, whole pieces, which have been or will be published. My words have even been spoken out loud at Lancaster Spotlight – a monthly spoken word event. Here is a piece on Caught By The River, with more to come soon in various exciting journals.

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I have made space by completing a project I stumbled into, which was a serendipitous extension of my Wayfaring. I had met a character in Cumbria named Walter Lloyd, an 89 year old former charcoal burner who lived in a bow top wagon built with his own hands. He had shown me his barn full of rusting everything, much of it paraphernalia to do with rural trades such as coppicing, coopering, tanning, blacksmithing, hay making, rope making…he had it all. It so happened that soon after my move to Cumbria a charity was awarded a small Heritage Lottery grant to restore these hand tools into a functioning tool library for free use by the public. So began Walter’s Tools, and I was asked to run it. It has been a fascinating and challenging way in to being in Cumbria, and through it I have met many fine people and deepened my knowledge. But now it feels time to return to my own unfinished business – writing about Iceland.

S ScythingLearning to scythe – part of the Walter’s Tools project

I have made space by getting a studio. At some point in their lives, preferably sooner than later, the artist in everyone deserves to be honoured by having a dedicated space to express, to procrastinate, to think, to not be disturbed, and to not have to tidy up to make way for the dinner plates. I do not know why I didn’t take this step sooner but it has been transformational. The space I now inhabit is tucked away in a cottage adjoining a former Victorian carpet factory, which has also been converted into artists’ studios.

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I happened to call the developer one day back in Spring when my grief gave me a short break, knowing that all the spaces were most probably taken. That day, someone had just decided they did not need as much space as they had thought, and as if my magic the space was mine. I now sit and write with the clacking of weavers next door on one side, the whispered cross hatching of a Japanese painter on the other, and the shaving and hammering of a chair maker below. Matter is being transformed into beauty in this building, and it seeps under every door.

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This weekend our doors shall be open to the public with our first ever Open Studios. Do pop in and say hello, if you would like to hear about Iceland or see what I make of it. As it is not that interesting to watch a writer tap away at their computer, I shall be selling winter cards with my photography from Iceland, jewellery I have made that was inspired by Iceland, and of course …Icelandic jumpers!

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With the turning of the year upon us and another year older, I hope to drink deeply of my mulled liquids and clear paths to new open doors. It is all a journey, but I am glad to be striding again.

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On this day two years ago I was wed. Jónsmessunott – Midsummer’s night – the day the seals are said to remove their skins to reveal their true human form, the cows are said to speak, and the dew becomes imbued with protective powers. On a mossy headland overlooking a long fjord in Iceland, encircled by friends and family, I made my vows to a man I love dearly and who I planned to spend my life with. We danced late into the bright Arctic night and through to the other side of day.

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Living through Icelandic summers where the dark never comes, it can be respite to have a little lull in the brightness, and I remember being grateful for it becoming overcast, so that I could light candles in the dim.

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I thought our lives together would be a long and happy one, as you would when you marry someone with whom you have already shared four happy years. But Life had other plans, and it has taken me a long time to hear it, understand it and accept it. Into the endless light of that union crept a darkness that slowly threatened to devour everything we had built. My husband suffered a severe bout of depression, which turned out to be a cycle that had been repeating itself for many years. For an affliction that is so commonplace in the Arctic, it is also a taboo. It is driven deep, not talked about, masked. He had masked it well from himself as much as anybody else. I tried to light candles in the darkness. We tried and we tried to keep it from swallowing us but it ran deep.

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On this Solstice a year ago I was standing alone on a pebbly beach on the Northern tip of Iceland watching the sun sink and kiss the horizon, before immediately lifting its head again. We had spent the winter in England, living on a canal boat escaping the darkness of the Icelandic sky to alleviate the darkness inside us. I was watched by a curious gull, who flew past me this way and that, this way and that again, his belly and wings uplit by the kissing sun.

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I was astounded by the electric halo around each and every lupine bud and felt I had walked into a dream sequence. I wondered why no one else was there witnessing this wonder. My love was on a night shift managing the harbour. Before our marriage he had worked as part of fishing crew where sometimes he was out at sea for weeks at a time. In this job, he had to be at the harbour whenever a catch was landed. It always seemed that I would see a lot of him or not much at all. Much like the sun, in the place where we lived – a small fishing village just below the Arctic circle – an equal balance of presence and absence seemed a futile desire. I looked at how red my trusty boots glowed in that golden light, and knew that in a few days’ time they would take me on a long and important journey.

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I won a competition to be Penguin Books’ Summer Wayfarer. I made that journey back to and within my home country of England and of course it transformed me. Travelling on foot for two months, carrying everything I needed on my back, I rekindled a relationship with a former self that was not defined as Carer, though she was caring. I shed layers of exhaustion and feelings of betrayal. I had a transfusion of light and kindness. It made me realise how much this land is my home, where I make sense.

The journey made me whole again, enough for one last push. But it emerged my husband’s darkness was his to gestate and I finally realised that I cannot be his midwife. We eventually found the strength to part ways because we love each other, and wish to let the light back in to each other’s lives. Now, in this moment, I can feel a fragile healing setting in, but I have been grieving long and wide and deep. Writing has helped me move through, but I have not felt to write here. What is there to say when everything you know has fallen away?

EarthLines Issue 9 cover

On this Solstice, a beautiful magazine has landed on my doorstep in which I tell this tale of my relationship with landscape, self and others. Earthlines is a delight of a publication, in its content and its covers, and I urge you to get a copy. I am touched to have been asked to write a piece, and the challenge of doing so was the beginning of a cathartic process. It is a raw journey to write when going through dark times, but it is also the time when the truth muse lingers long enough to be honoured.

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This Solstice I headed north to Scotland to share fireside, story, laughter and silence with beautiful people Dougie and Em Strang and their wonderful daughters and Jack Richardson, who I met on my Wayfaring journey. To have the anniversary of a union, now broken, marked by the generosity of the sun, and by the sadness of loss is a fragile path to tread, but I could not have done it in better company. For these heart friends in amongst the landscape I am deeply grateful.

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And to my husband, thank you for these six rich years shared that spanned many lifetimes and  have made me who I am now.

Orri : tree

37. Across Country

The final post of A Journey On Foot

31st August 2013

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In my last few days of wayfaring, I have been straddling the borders: of England and Wales, of ending and beginning, of immersion in the landscape and transit through it.

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Just before the end of my journey, and the train journey home on which I am currently hurtling through England, I was fortunate enough to make the transition of speed up a gear with the help of a Fell Pony called Robbie, who hailed from Cumbria where my journey began, and his keeper Erica, who kindly offered to take me around part of the new Blakeney Greenway in the Forest of Dean as her back stepper.

This fulfilled a long-held dream since the first time I visited the area some years back, and noticed a little wooden sign with a horse and carriage on it, in the forest. Some research led me to a wonderfully helpful lady called Lesley, who collected me in her sports car worthy of Toad of Toad Hall, and dropped me off in the forest to explore this network of routes that Erica and a group of determined forest dwellers have spent years establishing.

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Sarah back stepping

I did get a little lost on my first day on foot, and when back stepping (standing at the back of the carriage to give balance) I asked Erica how she got to know all of the paths in the forest so well. “By getting lost”, she said. She was most often on horseback, and if she thought she was lost, she loosened the reins and let the horse use its homing instinct.

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When most people step onto a train, their journey is just beginning. For me, the opposite is true. That moment at Cheltenham Spa station marked my journey’s end. The final step of my slow and steady plod that has become the rhythm of my days has taken me onto a Cross Country train bound for Home, thanks to their sponsoring my faster journeys on this Wayfaring Summer.

I am an unwieldy traveller with my walking stick and varied baggage. There is no overhead compartment that is the right shape for my mixed emotions. I make my way to First Class, as the staff have been generous to let me in on previous journeys. A First Class passenger looks me up and down. A bit of feral has crept into his ordered life. It makes him uncomfortable, and he asks the train manager to ask me to leave. This is the first unkindness I have experienced in two months, and it touches me deeply.

As I travel across country, the deep yellow corn fields flash past the window, punctuated by fern banks, red brick buildings, and distant church spires. It feels like a summary; the attention deficit version of a long and detailed story my feet have been writing.

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I have just spied Birmingham. It seems unfathomably large. My concept of size has been measured in oaks for too long to take this in, so I let it slide past outside the window. In the thick of it now. Brightly coloured cargo containers, which have travelled many more miles than I ever will. Small ancient brick houses dwarfed by glass and steel. Into the dark underbelly of Birmingham New Street Station. Bing bong….a list of destinations, options, sandwiches. I sit tight, knowing only that I am going home.

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A range of human emotions can happen on a train journey, and yet trains have an unspoken code of anonymity. I sit close to strangers and hear their conversations, whether I want to or not. If only they could hear what is going through my mind. Their spectres are framed by the window as I attempt to take in the landscape.

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I am travelling in a straighter line than my senses know how to process. To me it seems like a  series of missed turns and missed opportunities. One direction – forwards. A field full of black cows – like paper cuts on a green ground. I reach for my camera, but the scene has gone. I must get used to this. I am not going There; I am going Home. Talking to the train manager, whose terrain this route is, I discover that even on this kind of journey, one can learn to sense the landscape. He says he can tell where he is by the way that the carriage sways, even from a windowless compartment.

Going Home. But where is Home now? Where do you call Home when you have been making so many places home, one step at a time. When each night, you have broken bread with a particular piece of this earth? When there are so many pieces of me hanging on branches, floating on feathers and settled on the beds of peaty rivers and beside the hearths of friends old and new? How will it be to return to a place as a different person? Will it feel old and stuck, or heart-warmingly familiar?

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This one and only time, the journey is not the destination. The journey is a vessel of uncertainties that can only be resolved upon arriving. Is there any other form of transport so full of whispered questions, love, sadness, and anticipation? I wonder if Cross Country trains know just how much they transport across country, the emotional weight they carry? Whether they do or not, I am grateful to them for carrying mine this summer.

And I am grateful beyond words to all my travel companions – you readers of this blog. For all your comments and words of support. For all your twitterings that joined the birdsong in the morning. For allowing your hearts and eyes to see and feel the REAL and wonderful world that is still out there, if we just give it the space and time to breathe, and our utmost attention.

My journeying will not end. It could not. It is in the core of me. These words shall remain here for you to chew over slowly, for the next few months at least. Meanwhile, my life, my journeying and my tales shall continue – albeit less frequently – on my personal blog: www.journeysinbetween.wordpress.com and my twitterings: @journeysinbtwn. There shall soon also be a gem of a podcast on the Penguin website – a lovely conversation between Robert Macfarlane and I recorded in a den in the woods at Wandleberry, where his own journey on foot began. Look out for it in my twitterings.

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As if to remind me that this will never end, a wonderful word play sits next to me on the last leg of my train journey, fascinated by my unusual luggage. We talk at length about journeying, and then she introduces herself. Hazel Macfarlane. Hazel, like my walking stick. Macfarlane, like the man who made the words that started the journey in the first place.

Until our ways meet again, fare well Wayfarers all!

Post 36 of A Journey On Foot

31st August 2013

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As the wheels of time roll on, we all turn the matter that we gather into the matter that we are. So it is wise to gather well.

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What have I learned from all this? What will I take away? To be frank, I have not learned much I did not already know. But when it comes to the nature of ourselves, and of others, nor do any of us. We just chip away at the disbelief until the underneath is exposed long enough to remember what we always thought was true.

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A journey – Life being the greatest of them all – takes you through cycles of daybreak to day’s end. It takes you through landscapes, through textures, through processes. Kindness is offered. We learn much about our natures through how we receive it. We meet people, and they stay in our hearts and minds bound up with the landscape and the resonance of their story. Problems are encountered, and how we deal with them determines how many more cycles it will take for us to learn that lesson.

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There is a pulsing silken thread that weaves and wefts the fragments of our lives together. With it all we build a house for ourselves. One that is ever changing – with new material being brought in, and that which no longer serves us well, being cast out. It is strong, variegated, fragile, and beautiful as a wasps’ nest.

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On this journey I have had many teachers. Too many to name them all, and some impossible to name. But a few that are burning brightly from my adventures of late:

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From the landlady of The Northmore Arms in Dartmoor, I learned to accept kindness when it is offered. I had gone off onto Dartmoor intending to bivvi, almost desperate to sleep outside as so much hospitality had been offered which often meant I was indoors or in a tent. I had gone there to write my blog, and left in the dark & drizzle, having been offered her spare room. A little way down the road, I realised that to accept is as much a part of kindness as to give, so I turned on my heel. She cooked me some supper.

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From Fergus ‘the Forager’ Drennan, I learned how joyful someone’s character can be when they spend their lives outside, learning from and eating of what nature has to offer. I learned to make paper out of mushrooms and to not be afraid to try.

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Ronnie Aaronson, a natural beekeeper, reaffirmed my instinct to trust what comes into your path, by offering me her mill-house as a base in Devon without knowing me. Such a place of transformation as a mill is a fitting abode for a wise woman who talks to her bees and plays the flute to her willows, which are transformed into wood chip to warm her in the winter. And a fitting place for me to come back to as I turned several cycles up in Dartmoor.

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Meeting Rima Staines, I was reminded that the best stories are true, and that healing can come if we are patient and trust that it will.

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As I watched a slug, making my way up a hill to the place overlooking the Wye Valley where I would spend my final night, I truly appreciated what it is to cross terrain fully, with senses opened wide.

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I have had the good fortune to have two full months, two moon cycles, dedicated to listening to the spoked voice over and over and over again. I finally came to understand the engraving in my wedding ring: TRAUST (Icelandic ~ trust/solidity). Trust, full trust, will give rise to an indomitable solidity of spirit, even while material existence seems anything but.

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If there is one thing I ask of you, dear readers, it is to give yourselves the space to wander. It is not as hard as it seems. Once you are doing it you will wonder why you do not do it more often. Do not have a plan. It will be alright. It will be much more than alright. Life is no more linear than the branches of a tree. It is so much more interesting than that. It will be magical.

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